Hi dear follower of @yuppielifestyle!
I’m so excited that you are taking the time to visit my brand new site! I’m very happy that I can show you more of who I am via this platform as there are so many stories to tell behind my picture perfect posts on Instagram. I have had the great wish to start my own platform to share my stories for many years but didn’t have the time because of my full-time office job. A job that didn’t satisfy nor energize me, though making content for my Instagram page and fantasizing about content for a website did. But I never had the guts to do what I really wanted and continued doing what I thought was expected.
August 2016 I was diagnosed with a burn-out. I was totally shocked and felt like a big failure. Ever since I was an adolescent I have been focused on performing, being competent, being in control, being responsible, and most importantly meeting expectations. Over the years these ‘rules’ became so important to me that they started to control my life. The only way to feel good and confident was to perform better and better and achieve more and more. I became my achievements and forgot who I truly was, what I wanted, and what made me happy.
In the first months of my burn-out I felt lost, depressed and insecure. I was afraid of being rejected by those around me now that I couldn’t be who I assumed they expected me to be. For so many years I had the conviction that I had to live and behave in a certain way to be approved. After months of therapy I realized that I was living a unauthentic life and that I felt disconnected from my feelings, emotions and desires. I had been anxiously showing the outside world my picture perfect life while from the inside I was feeling empty and unhappy.
That's why I decided to conquer my fears and start the journey to explore who I am. I hope that sharing my process of finding my identity can be meaningful for you too. I hope to stimulate you to share your imperfections and struggles with me and with each other. It can be very comforting to know that other people have insecurities and difficult experiences too. I am convinced that in this superficial and demanding society a countermovement is needed to speak out loud about these vulnerable things. Are you joining the movement?
Lots of love, Joline
PS: no worries my passion for fashion, beauty and travel is part of the journey too!